It's been a little over a week since I had that strange procedure. I've really bounced back. Sure, I went through some ups and downs. The first several days felt like a whopper of a flu, then there's been fatigue, and a fair amount of vomiting, even now. But my energy is back, and I'm happy, social, and feeling the familiar cozy, autumnal feelings that one feels when fall arrives. I want to bake hearty dinners, wear boots and warm scarves, relax around Neil's fireplace fires, snuggle with a book and the kids on school nights, all of it. I don't know what's ahead, or if that procedure worked (I have an appt this Wed morning to go over "next steps", which I'm dreading, because I so much prefer living life in this current blissful, treatment-free mode), but I know I have to go back and face the music. I know that I don't get to continue feeling worry-free for much longer. And I know it's unfair. But I can't focus on any of that. Because in the end, it just does my soul NO GOOD. You simply have to focus on this day. Do what you can with today. And don't put off for tomorrow what you can or should do today.
It's funny, I have developed a real lack of sympathy and, I suppose, respect for people who refuse to live courageously. What does "living courageously" mean? I will talk about that in my next post. (Wow, THAT sermon sounds like something you're going to want to read.) It's Sunday afternoon, and by golly, I have stuff to do.
Sorry I haven't checked in in a while. I appreciate all the thoughts you've been sending my way. And food! I really, really have.
And if anyone knows what to do with the 50 or so green tomatoes I've got staked up out there in the rain, I'm all ears. I'll be damned if the slugs are going to be the sole beneficiaries of all that hard work.
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FRIED GREEN TOMATOES! Never have made them, but people rave. You can also can green tomatoes, as far as I know. I'm sorry about the rain, but it makes those fires that Neil makes that much sweeter. I love reading your words, Shel.
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ReplyDeleteThank you so much for the update! I have been thinking about you tons! Autumn in Toledo is shaping up to be a great one. Hoping you can enjoy and embrace the season to the fullest!!!
Sending Health, Strength and Energy your way:)
I was so happy to see your update Shelly! And I continue to be amazed at your positivity. Julia said it right: "I love reading your words." Thank you for sharing them with us. xo
ReplyDeleteFGT - get in touch if you want my recipe. Being from South Carolina IS good for something once in awhile;-)
ReplyDeleteDoes this quote fit in your live courageously content? Can't wait to hear more about that since you are the manifestation of human courage I know you got TONS to say 'bout it! Keep it up.
ReplyDelete"The only reason we don't open our hearts and minds to other people is that they trigger confusion in us that we don't feel brave enough or sane enough to deal with. To the degree that we look clearly and compassionately at ourselves, we feel confident and fearless about looking into someone else's eyes". ―Pema Chödrön
Ah. I'm so glad to hear you're feeling better. I agree with Julie. Fry em up. xoxo, Moogs
ReplyDeleteI'd let your kids throw the green tomatoes out the upstairs window and onto the driveway below. Just because it would be really fun and it seems like something you would do with your kids.
ReplyDeleteHi Shelly -
ReplyDeleteI don't know if we've ever met (I sort of think we might have since I've been to lots of nationals since 1985) but I like to stalk you on your blog and tell everyone about an amazing Kenyon Lady.
At the men's team retirement weekend for Jim (which I crashed with Agee, Beth, Kris, and some other Lady alums - because it looked like a good party, not to be missed) Coach and I got to talking to about you and your courage (since we both stalk your blog). Coach said, and I agree, that you are one of his heroes. I know he'll never say that to your face, but I thought you ought to know. You are my hero too. Were your ears burning? Anyway, know that lots of us are thinking about you, holding you in the light, and praying for you.
Schwens '85
PS. Congrats on the Hall of Fame thing! Good for you! :)
Totally still waiting/anticipating this next post about living courageously! Preach, yo.
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